Ok, I may share thoughts and recipes and reading lists, but I seldom actually share personal information. Kinda think it's safer that way. However, since I don't really think anyone is reading this but me, I'm making an exception.
I am what doctors would call morbidly obese. I need to lose about 150 lbs to be at fighting weight. That is so difficult for me to admit verbally even though anyone looking at me could guess. So, I have decided to track my journey to a healthier me.
I know that the number on the scale does not define me, and does not equal my worth. However, it's the way I am treated by others. Most salespeople won't look me in the eye. It's like, I'm somehow less than a human. I also have decided too that this is the time because I'm finding it difficult to do some very simple basic things. I'm too large for lawn chairs and ended up missing my nephews first baseball game because there were no bleachers. Ok, so April is the month!
I know this journey will be difficult and more than likely lengthy. I have not only body image issues to deal with, but exercise insecurities. I need to work on food, obviously, but more so than that I need to work on my mind and heart.
I am starting today a supplement advertised on Dr. Oz called Garcinia Cambogia. It is supposed to help with appetite, and fat burning and energy without the crazy buzz. So this morning I weighed in and took my first dose.
My ultimate weight loss goal is 100 lbs, but my more immediate goal is 10lbs.